Ultimateaaron12:
I think I’m finally ready to give into gaining but my problem is I feel really embarrassed at the idea of ordering at restaurants or grocery shopping like a fat person especially as someone the exact opposite and of course already being shy in general doesn’t help but I’m wondering if anyone who had a similar experience who was embarrassed about giving in and eventually let go has any advice would be greatly appreciated
If it's takeout food, who cares? They don't know if it's just for you, or even if they do, they probably don't care.
At the grocery store... again, who cares? Maybe you're buying for others in addition to yourself.
Even if you forget about gaining and feederism for a second, think about it. Who buys entire turkeys or those big sheet cakes? Or those larger pizzas? Most of them do so with the idea more than one person will be eating it. So maybe that's what you're doing. Or maybe not, but that's not really your business.
You can also always use self checkout. If a cashier asks, say you have a lot of cooking and prep to do, or there's some sort of event or big get-together coming up.